Hello everyone!

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It is 12:57 a.m. and I cannot sleep: what else is new?
Everything is ok… Health, basic needs, family’s overall well being…
I cannot help but to think about a Happy Ending. What is it?

I found the following on Wikipedia: “A happy ending is epitomized in the standard fairy tale ending phrase, “happily ever after” or “and they lived happily ever after.”

The more I reflect back on my life, the more I am starting to think such thing was not designed for me.
A few years ago I changed my life for this young man I met in town and he swept me off my feet. He was smart, funny, thoughtful, handsome, and a soldier. He was also addicted to pain killers and I believed everything he ever told me. That was my mistake.

Now, 6 years after meeting him, he claims to be rehabilitated, is in charge of a rehabilitation organization in his home town, is married and even expecting his first child.
On the other hand, I am divorced, not finished with my B.A. and not happy.
While I wish him well and Karma seems to have run it’s course with him since he got in trouble for possession and even went to jail for a few weeks about 3 years ago, I am still wondering where is my happy ending.

I wish him the very best and all I ever wanted was for him to be happy. He now seems to be and he seems to be clean… He found someone who shares his same faith and background…
I am still wondering where is my happy ending.

Things in my life have always seemed to be so difficult, so hard to get, I have to always chased things and perhaps I am getting tired… I am not old by any means but I feel old and tired. I am still wondering where is my happy ending.

Thanks for reading & buenas noches,

~Wen